My Feet Have Become (Un?) Comfortably Numb

I worked out like, 3 times today.  I also ate Chinese Food for dinner.  I don't think it will end up balancing out, unfortunately.  I DID, however, abstain from cokes today.  Well, mostly.  I got a Coke with my Jimmy John's and drank about 1/3 of it and then gave it to James to take away.  Which really, for me, is abstaining from cokes.  I could drink Coke all day.  I mean, just sip on it ALL day.



My feet are burning.  They just BURN.  I have good shoes for exercising too.  I came to the conclusion about 30 pounds ago though, that once you're a certain weight, your feet just HURT.  Everything hurts them.  Wearing shoes, not wearing shoes, wearing sandals...I actually can't wear heels anymore- not that I was a pro before all of the weight gain, but still.  I like dressing up but it always feels pointless once I remember that I don't have shoes to wear that look good.  I usually wear flip-flops, because my feet are more claustrophobic than they are in pain.



I bought Dr. Scholl's heel-specific insole things for the wedding day and put them in my gorgeous shoes.  It was a WASTE of money.  When we were up there for the ceremony, I could FEEL my legs just trembling underneath my (thankfully) large and rather puffy wedding dress.  I was doing some major shifting of the weight under there.  I have such good stage presence.  That's the only way I got through that.



I suppose that being a performer makes you able to deal with that kind of situation.  I can think of a number of shows and performances where I was having a costume malfunction or just painful shoes on my feet, but I didn't let the audience know!




If you have EVER lived with me or spent enough time around me, you'll know that as soon as I get home from anywhere, I just take things off.  Especially shoes- they are the 1st to go.  My feet just don't like shoes- possibly because they hurt.  Of course, I wore flip-flops year round when I was "skinny", but I think that was because I was kind of a casual dresser at that time in my life.




So the irony of this whole thing, is that the more you weigh, the more it HURTS to walk (even short distances) or to exercise, which in turn, makes it feel horribly impossible to do.




I think to myself, "If only I weighed xxx lbs., then I would work out ALL the time without a problem!"  But I'm pretty sure working-out is a struggle for people of all weights.  Of course, I would love to work out and NOT be in pain.  Eh, whatever- I'm far from that ever happening again.  One.  Tiny.   Step.   At.   A.   Time.   (boo!)




* insert joke to end blog light-heartedly *